I’m a successful businessman, husband and father. However, the real “me” is a pervert which I keep hidden from others. I want to meet others like me – who hide part of their lives from others. I have had a ton of online relationships, but desire something more.
I grew up sucking on my uncle's cock and had other experiences with older men and women. My uncle was deeply perverted and introduced me to the other adults as well. – I was deeply involved in incest with my two sisters and my brother. It was always one way with my brother – I sucked his cock to completion. My sisters loved for me to lick their pussies and assholes – I developed a taste for pussy and ass very young.
My main kink has been exhibitionism. I got very turned on by getting naked in risky places very early in my life. When I was a very young boy, I would get this erotic high by stripping down at a park or school yard on the weekend to rub myself. Two key events turned me into a “classic” exhibitionist. When I was 13, I was out in a local park getting ready to take my clothes off and do my thing. I ran into a man who actually “flashed” me by taking his cock out and masturbating. This got me very hard and I took out my own cock and masturbated which took him by surprise (to put it lightly). I motioned for him to come over to me so I could suck his cock, but he was content to just masturbate and stared at me in bewilderment.
The second event occurred when I turned 14 when I took my first hit of acid (purple microdot). This heightened my need to take my clothes off and masturbate. I did not realize that an acid trip was an 8 hour experience and that I would be up most of the night. Around 1AM I was walking down the street completely naked and masturbating. I ran into two women who were sitting on their porch in the dark. One of them said, “Oh honey, what are you doing”? I was very afraid at first, but then put on a show for them and they loved it! (This almost never happens to an exhibitionist).
After this, I became a “classic” exhibitionist myself and masturbated in front of a wide range of females over a 20 year span. My specialty was the beach, park, condo’s/apartment pools, and rec areas. To be clear, this was a compulsion I could not control – the kind that gets you in jail. The kind of perversion that people laugh at and ridicule… I rarely got a positive reaction from exposing, sometimes laughter and often disgust. This just fueled my desire for more. I’ve often wondered what a real kinky woman would do when they saw me.
However, I gave up exposing with advent of the smart phone and all the cameras. I continue to masturbate in risky places, but don’t target women any longer
I have many other kinks and interests. I love incest and anything perverted. I think my involvement with my uncle is the root cause of my desire to be perverted and degraded. I still love it when a man shoves his cock down my throat and cums on my face or when a woman commands me to put my tongue deep into her ass. I also discovered age play by accident a few years ago and have had a lot of fun with it.
I am totally aware that most people with my background would be very bitter and traumatized with their past. However, I find that I love being a pervert. I think my uncle gave me awesome experiences. If I could go back in time I would want more sex. I still fantasize about my time with my uncle, sisters and brother.
However, if I describe my past to others they typically view my uncle as a monster. When I see their reaction I think, “If they only knew me they would think that I am a monster”.
I would love to chat/role play with others who've had similar experiences, both positive and negative. Is anyone proud of being a pervert or depraved? Do you look upon your sexual experiences positively? I would also love meeting other perverts who do not have the fun past that I had. I’m looking forward to developing some longer term friends.